where is christmas this year?

Well when we fall down it's nice to know we have friends and family to help pick you up. Chad's mom died almost 3 weeks ago. After being out of work for a week for surgery that has set us back in our bills big time. Well that doesn't leave much room for christmas. Aaron isn't getting a single new thing from us. Its all second hand stuff. I know he won't know the difference but I do. I am not right now what I am going to get anyone else. It is killing me to get closer and closer to christmas knowing I don't have any gifts for anyone. I haven't been able to go to any christmas parties because they have been catered and cost money. I hate being depressed this time of year. At least things should start looking up at work. I have 2 people shadowing me on different days next week. I am praying they both work out but atleast one of them. I am really getting run down at work too. Ok done venting for now thanks for listening.